‘’Don’t die on me, I am not ready to lose you. You’re going to live’’, I murmured yet it was so audible to all. As he lied down, I recalled the first time I saw him. Justice was with his four sons and wife. They were so happy, happy because their father was going to get a new heart. Honestly, I could not envision going to his family and telling them that he did not make it.
As I massaged the heart once more, I was praying to God to save him.
Then his new heart started beating on its own. It was pure delight! The surgical team was filled with joy and pride. Justice sure is a lucky man.
I pumped into the suction machine as I was leaving the O. R. and was about to fall, but then Alex held me. Alex happens to be my scrub nurse and we had gone out a couple of times. Our relationship was a love -hate one. We were literally the headline news in the hospital as we were never shy to display our love publicly. But he crushed my heart and turned my day- dream into a nightmare. We broke up because he thought I was too much for him and that he was not in my league. To me, he was perfect. He was handsome in every sense of the word.
I still loved him.
‘’hey, how is my sweetie doing’’, said Jeff, my fiancé. Jeff was also a surgeon, a general surgeon. Everyone thought that he was perfect for me, but I did not love him.
‘’I’m great. Just going to check up on two patients in the I. C. U.’’
‘’You take care. I’ll call you’’. He then planted a kiss on my lips.
All I wanted was to end it once and for all with him and cancel the engagement. I did not want to marry a man I did not love. But I was mortified by the thought.
I finished my second surgery, a valve replacement at 2pm and was paged. Justice was coding. He could not breathe due to a lump which was blocking his airway. We had to do an immediate tracheostomy in order to save his life. He was then put on life support.
His wife came to me later that day and in words so filled with passion and emotion told me to take great care of her husband. ‘’Your husband is one hell of a fighter. Know that we our doing our best. His condition is stable and we our monitoring him’’, I said. She continued to tell me that Justice was her first love and could not foresee living without him. She told me about how they meet and how their love had grown over the years.
She rekindled my faith in love.
In the changing room, I met Alex and professed my undying love for him.
He did not utter a word. He simply hugged me tightly. I did not know what it meant. I just enjoyed it while it lasted.
…still smiling in the dream world.
Image source: google images
No comments:
Post a Comment